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California murders Tookie

December 13, 2008

Editor’s note: This story, originally published Dec. 14, 2005, is being republished today to mark the third anniversary of the state murder of Stanley Tookie Williams.

by Wanda Sabir

It was a “No Cookie, Cookie,” Bilal Sabir’s famous dessert guaranteed to hit the spot – but somehow it missed this time. The occasion – post state-sponsored murder, a situation not necessarily good for the appetite. I think the inclination was the linguistic affinity – Tookie … Cookie. Comfort food for the political upset once I arrived home from San Quentin Dec. 13 at 2:30 a.m.

A young woman from Berkeley waits.
A young woman from Berkeley waits.
I still can’t believe it. Maybe if I refuse to watch the news or turn on the radio for a few hours, don’t open the door or buy a newspaper, I can pretend it was all a nightmare and wait for the sun to rise again and then again until the wrong is righted, what’s done is undone. But I was there. At 12:01, I remembered Stan Williams on the other side of the hill, one covered in uniformed men, riot gear on, poised and ready for trouble as reinforcements in helicopters circled overhead, often drowning out the speakers.

The scene was surreal and a bit too artificially bright to be real. The usual folks tried to sell me a paper, quiz me about the death penalty; still others asked for my phone number. I don’t know why young white anarchists assume every African person is in need of political education.

I ignore the bright lights, fake smiles, sympathetic yet clueless looks of empathy as news anchor in red suit blocks my view, her blonde hair unruffled, matching lipstick a slick smear where lips meet, her media techs pushy and territorial. White privilege spraying the air like Raid, I try to stay focused and remember the life about to be terminated just because certain people have the power to do so. This makes the scenario in front of me even more unpalatable. Why all the lights? Why all the noise? Why all the fanfare now that a man’s life is about over?

If this spectacle were not reason enough for every sane person to register and vote, I’m not certain what might be a better one. Over 2,000 people were there, the speaker’s list lengthy, and except for the children who spoke and then read from Tookie’s books, most of the talk was the tired rhetoric of the past which up to now has benefited everyone except the ones it’s supposed to help.

I was surprised to see so many people I knew, like Marina Drummer, Kamil Jabril, JR, Donald Lacy, Angela Davis, Fania Davis, Heru Nefera Amen, Sandra McGee, Kwami Yephet, Marcel Diallo …. Most, like me hadn’t come to any other executions, but this one was different.

Not in our name, a slogan made popular at the start of the Iraq war, took on additional meaning as each of us silently considered the language of capital punishment: “The people of the state of California ….”

Unless one consciously disassociates herself from the acts of terror committed on her behalf, then silence equals complicity. “Ignorance of the law,” as we’re told, “is no excuse.” Neither is ignorance of harm committed by such laws in one’s name by elected officials, whether they were the representatives of one’s choice or not.

Allah says in the Qur’an not to stand idly by and allow wrong to be committed. The first or best resistance is to stop it with one’s hand, the second is to stop it with one’s mouth and the third to leave the place where the wrong is committed.

Resistance is an active word, and so is change, both transitive. Both attach themselves to an object, something concrete, something measurable, something visible, and in the process make it into something else … we hope, something better.

Tookie’s thinking changed and when that changed, so did his life. This change is seen in the choices he made to eschew negative actions and to be a man of peace.

At one point I thought democracy belonged to all Americans, the same with justice. Tookie’s death is evidence to the contrary, the two – justice and democracy – are owned by white men in business suits who run the world and control many people in it.

Shadows walking back to cars after the execution
Shadows walking back to cars after the execution
But not for long.

It was 12:15 … “take a deep breath,” someone advised. “Sometimes it takes 10-15-20 minutes before we know what’s going on.” These were veterans around me. One woman ran down the procedures for her friend.

12:20 … Life is ended so quickly, yet takes so long to live – 24 years, 51 years, gone just like that.

It was the same argument … safer streets. Remember the victims. We do remember the victims, especially those of us who are victims. My nephew was murdered three-four years ago, another San Francisco unsolved murder – 21 years old, shot in the head.

Murder is wrong no matter who commits the wrong.

Tookie professed his innocence to his grave; and to substantiate this, new evidence was revealed just Saturday from a former inmate of the LA county jail which incriminates the LA Sheriff’s Department.

Nothing has changed, except now Black men don’t have to get off the sidewalk and walk in the street, their eyes down, when a white person walks by.

“Stay peaceful … hold onto Tookie’s legacy (of peace)” came from the stage.

Tookie stated just before his death that he was okay, that his conscience was clear,” Brother Fred Jackson, project coordinator for the Internet Project for Street Peace, shared. I’d just seen Brother Fred yesterday at the screening of “Redemption” sponsored by Oakland Councilwoman Desley Brooks’ office.

Tookie called in to speak to us. Executive producer Rudy Langlais was there too. We were all so hopeful. Desley told me about victory parties planned, and when I spoke to Sister Barbara Cottman Becnel, co-author of the anti-gang and violence books she and Tookie authored, she smiled and invited me for an interview once he was granted clemency or a stay.

“We’re going to stay calm,” Brother Fred continued as still another voice joined his. “I know you’re angry; we’ll all angry, but we’re going to stay calm.

The recitation of Tookie’s words helped me stay mindful about the reason for the gathering.

Minister Keith Muhammad called Tookie a scientist of social change. I had a déjà vu moment as he spoke: Saturday morning MGT classes at Temple 26 in San Francisco. Recitation of the Actual Facts, Student Enrollment Lessons and discussions from “Message to the Black Man.” I always wondered when the “Lesson to the Black Women” was going to be written, until Shaharazad Ali wrote hers. I’ll have to write it myself. Just as Tookie wrote his.

Each of us is responsible for his or her life. The answer lies inside each of us. We need to stop throwing away our power. Greatness fills many landfills.

While many people prayed for a California moratorium against the death penalty through Jan. 1, 2009, a bill authored by Assemblyman Paul Koretz, about to have a legislative hearing next month, a week behind the next scheduled execution – this time of Clarence Ray Allen – a lone voice shouted and cursed the night, and soon even that voice was silenced at 12:25 a.m. as we began to wonder what was going on.

We need to stop throwing away our power. Greatness fills many landfills.

The helicopters flew closer as we awaited information about Brother Stan. Was he still alive?

“Don’t kill in my name,” a sign read. “Blessed are the Peacemakers,” another stated. “It’s our ancestral territory …” a man whispered angrily. “If we’re going to do something, why not do something!”

I looked around at the potential guns pointed at us and where I could move if people went stupid.

At 12:34 we sang a Native American healing song.

At 12:35, Stanley Tookie Williams was dead. The state of California had murdered him.

A man whose greeting was the Swahili term Amani, or peace, was gone. What a waste, his loss incalculable now or ever.

I felt like the brothers and sisters must have felt when faced by lynch mobs – the barbecue for the day, their bodies. We turned around and began to the long walk back to the car. Crosses piled on the ground made travel hard, as did other discarded protest paraphernalia.

The rowdy voices grew louder as the police presence grew more visible. We left the visitor’s center location, the San Francisco Bay a serene contrast to the madness we’d just witnessed.

Email Bay View Arts Editor Wanda Sabir at

15 thoughts on “California murders Tookie

  1. Bob Boatright

    I can’t believe anyone would have sympathy for a murderous criminal like this animal. You obviously do not know the definition of murder. If you would like to be better informed, read Section 187 of the California Penal Code.

  2. Tony Loftin

    I think that it is a shame that people do not have as much feeling for the victims of crimes. The victims and their loved ones who are no longer “in the news”. Whose voices have been silenced by murder, drunk driving, and the like; and who cannot achieve the “limelight” by a statement or legal filing.

  3. crisitan roldan

    Me gustaria estar en contacto con ustedes yo tambien soy discriminado por no saber hablar muy bien el ingles soy boliviano

  4. Mesha Monge-Irizarry

    Tookie Lives!

    You can’t kill
    Tookie’s Spirit
    Peacemaker Lives !
    Forever, diggit
    Tookie Forgives !

    You can’t kill
    Tookie’s Soul
    Peacemaker flies !
    Above your HellHole
    All over our skies !

    You can’t kill
    Tookie’s Message
    He soars, our King
    Free from bondage
    Love abounding !

    You can’t kill
    Tookie’s Wisdom
    All over our Earth
    Sounding the Drum
    Of Peace Worth !

    You can’t kill
    Through Genocide
    Death of a Conscience
    On the State side !

    You have not
    killed Tookie
    Just lost your soul
    To white power and money
    Arnie’s loophole…

    From San Quentin Bay
    On its way
    All over the Nation!

    Tookie Lives
    In all our hearts
    Tookie forever
    Drawing the Path
    NO more bloodbath…

  5. Mesha Monge-Irizarry

    Comments # 1 and 2 reek of the inimitable, brilliant style of our lovely correctional system.

    But besides your educated opinion, have you ever heard of the Nobel Price, boys ?
    Tookie was nominated 3 times,
    and received hundreds of thousands of thank you letters from Youth from all over the world for his legacy of peace and non violence,
    before you murdered him,
    that are archived by his long time confident Barbara Bechnel.

    Nice try.

    Read the Penal Code, hm ?

    What part of our Penal Code sanctions prison TORTURE?
    and all the deaths in custody across the nation of the Porud and the Free under the most suspicuous of circumstance?
    ot the corruption and bestial brutality of some of your custodians ?

    What part of your righteous moral code covers the violation of the Hippocratic Oath through lethal injections ?

    When will the Penal code sanction the murderer at large, guilty of the crime that Brother Mumia Abu Jamal has been standing on death row for, since the last 2 decades?

    You will be trialed by the PEOPLE, your day will come.

    Free Leonard Peltier, the SF 8, the Cuban 5, FREE THEM ALL !


    Please, enlighten me

  6. crisitan roldan

    Yo nunca he estado en la carcel, la discriminacion es que no puedo conseguir trabajo por no dorminar el ingles apesar de ser profesional como teacher de psicogia y filosofia, Lic en Ciencias de la Educacion y egresado de la carera de Psicologia de U.A.R.G.M de Santa Cruz- Bolivia necesito trabajar ya estoy un mes en el pais legalmente con todos los documentos, y no encuentro trabajo.

  7. Natalie

    cristian – va a ser bien dificil encontrar trabajo sin ingles. You era una maestra de ingles como idioma segunda y en mis clases habian estudiantes de toda parte de latinoamerica y algunos de ellos muy bien educados – un abogado de ecuador, veterenario de mexico y mas, y todos estaban trabajando en Carl’s Jr. Buena suerte, espero que encuentre trabajo.

  8. crisitan roldan

    Tal vez uno de ustedes conoce donde empezar a trabajar donde no se necesite tanto el ingles, me gustaria tener alnuga pequena oportunidad para empezar les agradeceria de todo corazon atentamente Cristian Roldan

  9. mesha

    While I empathize with the Latino Brother,
    this is a thread about Tookie…. not a chat room.

    You might want to subscribe to the SF_JUNTOS yahoogroup to extend your realm of contacts around employability in San Francisco ?

    In Unity & Respect

    Aunque siento simpatía para el Hermano, esto es una conversación acerca de Tookie, no es una prática general.

    ¿ Tal vez Ud quisiera soscribirse al grupo de Web de SF_JUNTOS para aumentar sus contactos acerca de empleos en San Pancho ?


  10. Tony Loftin

    FYI… I made no disparaging statement or innuendo about Tookie. I believe anyone’s death is a waste.

    But I do find it amusing the mention of a Nobel Peace Prize nomination.

    I hope that is not the sole basis upon which you hold Tookie in such high regard.

    A Nobel Peace Prize NOMINATION really doesn’t mean a thing to me. If he had won the prize, it would have meant something; however, ANYONE can be nominated. The Director of Corrections or the Warden of San Quentin State Prison could be nominated for the Nobel Peace Prize.

    If you select the following link, you will see that, in 1939, Adolph Hitler was nominated for the Nobel Peace Prize. Unless you are anti-Semitic or have a regard for assassins of innocent humans, I wouldn’t make the comparison…

  11. Deep Needle

    Tookie was not murdered by the Great State of California.

    He simply had a “final” cocktail in the vein.

  12. mesha Monge Irizarry

    You know in what particlar part of your enhlightened body you can stick it, “long needle”?

    The “final cocktail” that your wannabe sarcastic humor reminds us of, in Tookie’s case. took 45 AGONIZING minutes to go through his veins, as witnessed by Barbara Bejhnel

    Maybe you would be a hit on Imus, Limbaugh, Sacvage or Kariel shows. but here, you are wasting your brio

  13. Deep Needle

    It’s not “Barbara Bejhnel,” it’s Barbara Becnel.

    If you are going to quote Babs, make sure to get the spelling right!

    I wonder what Tookie’s molecules are up to right now.

    -The Deep Needle

  14. mesha

    Sorry for the mispell of Barbara Becnel’name, simple slip of the finger on an ultrasensitive laptop….

    I have worked many times with Barbara, when I hosted CEDP forums in SF Bayview, the Mission , and at Northern Cal ACLU the year of Tookie’s execution.

    NO brio intended here, just an humble worker among myriad in the struggle to end the barbaric practice of the Death Penalty.


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